Ever have one of those days when you question eveything you're doing as though it might not be right? You wonder if you're really making progress or just coasting along a path that seems to have its own direction?
Well I just had one of those days recently and it was not a pleasant experience. To be honest, I have those days more often than I care to admit. I've had them all of my life. I've always assumed that those feelings were just the result of pursuing a creative life, whether as a musician or photographer. When you define your own parameters for how you're going to measure success, there's going to be pushback – from society, family, friends, and your own fear.
I hear people talk about a safety net. I've never had one. At least not in the traditional sense. My idea of a safety net was my resolve to do whatever it took to get me to the next gig, or assignment, or rent/mortgage payment. To me that was much more reliable than a promise from an employer that I was secure. Because I was responsible for my own security, I took it upon myself to make sure I was prepared for any situation. Learning as much as I could about photography, the business, the pitfalls, and never standing still. Pushing forward, climbing up the mountain even as it seems to get steeper.
If a new technology comes along, I learn it. If a new way to market my work comes along, I find out how I can take advantage of it. And most of all, if I have an opportunity to do something that seems out of reach, I take a leap of faith.
I've worried about the same things for 20 years. But as my wife likes to point out so calmly, I'm still here doing what I love.
Don't let the bad days become a problem. The fear is usually not real, and it certainly isn't insurmountable. Some days it just feels like it is. It's time for a good day, and I'm ready, are you?